Okay, I think I have now completely screwed up so many things, i don't even know what to say, every time I try to say something, i just sound rediculous. For instance - I've sent swaps out the weren't completed. What the hell? That's not me. I'm behind on a few swaps because I just can't seem to get inspired. I keep joining new ones because I can't resist and I keep thinking - my muse will come back...and hopefully it will bring my brain back with it!!
I don't know what the real deal is with me these days...i think it's the migranes. They're horrible. I went to the eye doctor, she said bifocals...bifocals at 25 (in may)...rough. So I got bifocals, I had them a week...getting kind of used to them, but not really. I can't consentrate on my swaps to long because it hurts my eyes, which hurts my head...which makes me want to cry because doing the swaps is my own personal therapy (can't afford a real one, that would take up my art money).
I do have an appointment with the opthmologist - eye surgeon, because my eye doctors thinks there is some serious issues with my eyes - high pressure...blah...blah...blah...migranes....my eyes ache... I hate the eye doctors, I hate what they put you through....I can't even put drops in my eyes...hey, some people hate needles...i hate eye doctors. Ben is going with me to hold my hand...i love him.
Last weekend, I couldn't find my car charger, I had someone trying to hook up with me for some fun stamping or just hangin out time, had to rely on emails and hoped she got them so she wasn't thinkin i was ignoring her. Found my cell phone charger after the weekend, in the same place i always put it so I don't loose it. !!?&*?!!
I don't get it. I want my normal brain and my normal patterns back. Damn it!!
I'm staying home this weekend to get my swap life back in order, i have a beatles altered book, some cds to alter and some cards to make...they will get done...and they will be fabulous!
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